Headaches, shoulder pain, back pain. Just about every kind of known pain, has some kind of medicine that one can take for it today, and with time, the pain goes away. What about the pain that folks feels inside. The lost of a child, the breaking up or losing something of value only to that person.

There is a huge difference between pain, and depression. Most people would tend to differ, but follow me as I guide you through the pain that has caused me to live close to edge of depression. When most people during all of this time continued to suggest to get help, or better yet, to get the drugs associated with depression. These drugs make folks act as if they are sleepy, or wander around like if they were high. However they never address the problem which caused the depression to begin.

Fifteen years ago, I came to realize that I was in a marriage that was unreal. The pain from that caused me to not despise women. Last year I met a woman who changed my feelings about myself, and everything I had begun to despise. But someone destroyed the growing relationship, the heart break was so great that I couldn’t remember ever feeling that way. Is that pain any different that the pain that most people know? Is this one of these new ideas that someone else has come up with?

Well, I looked into what I feel. And when I went back and look into the oldest book around. In the Bible, as far back as the Old Testament there are times when more people displayed there pain in a more outwardly manner. Can anyone really understand how one reacts to this pain, in this day and age. Is there any comfort or any thing that someone can take? What should be said?  I guess you really don’t know until live through it yourself.

So here is the best way to describe that pain. There is a song whose lyrics say the following: ” I hear singing,  but there is no one there, I smell blossoms, but the trees are bare, all day long I seem to walk on air, I wonder why…   You’re not sick, your’w just in love”

When you become heart broken, you know, when no matter what you do, no matter who you talk too. That person is in every single thought. When that person is out, the singing, dosen’t stop. Imagine that you have been working out, and then you stop. Most times you have adrenaline running in your body. When it has to more use, it attempts to control your muscles on it’s own, causing cramps.  (Ever have a charlie horse) Well imagine that pain in your heart everyday.

That is the only way to describe the pain, that is felt when one’s heart is broken. Mine is, and the pain keeps me from smiling. Do you know someone else that might be in the same place. Lend a hand, or a shoulder when they need to cry.

I cry all alone, I live with my pain!

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About Medicsmurf

I am an ex- NY City Emergency Paramedic. Life brings us new challenges, adventures, and downfalls. I look to making them all a positive way to grow. From here we only go up.

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